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23 : Therapy, Trauma, and Hope with Justin Sunseri

Photo taken by Portrait Lane Photography

Photo taken by Portrait Lane Photography

Hey, today I'm super excited because I got to chat all about trauma, therapy, and how we are stuck and not broken with Justin Sincero. Justin is a Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist, who calls himself a trauma nerd. It was such a fun conversation, and I hope this can help you seek the help you might need and gives you hope that trauma is not the end of your story. As Justin says, there is so much more information on the internet, and so much help other than just therapy. Therapy is amazing and super helpful, but it's not the only path. Let's listen in to this amazing conversation with Justin.


-Who is Justin, and how did you come to be a Family Therapist?

-Many people want to go to therapy, or they think they could benefit from therapy, but they are overwhelmed with trying to find a therapist. How can someone take steps to find a therapist, when they are exhausted and don’t have much energy to spend trying to find someone?

-Bad Therapist Experiences

-Trauma Nerd and Polyvagal Theory in a nutshell

-You call yourself a trauma nerd, which I love because it’s super fascinating to me as well. 

-#Stucknotbroken

-Is there hope for someone who has experienced trauma? (I ask this because so many people believe they are broken and that they have stuck in the trauma the rest of their lives)


Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/justinlmft/
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/JustinLMFT/
Podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/ie/podcast/polyvagal-podcast/id1452037362
Website: https://www.justinlmft.com/

Recommended Book: The Pocket Guide to The Polyvagal Theory by Stephen Porges

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